My Room With a View
When I woke up Sunday morning, I knew instantly why I was sleeping on the king-size mattress in my living room. The fire from the day before had rendered the bedroom unusable and the smell of smoke in the air made the rest of the apartment unlivable.
Living in New York for as long as I have, I’m often asked for hotel recommendations. I don’t have any – I live here; but now I had to find a place to stay for the foreseeable future. The only thing I did know was that I wanted to stay in my neighborhood on the Upper West Side.
My renter’s insurance would pay for my accommodations but they needed me to make a decision. The Beacon was out. It was filled with too many memories of the time I stayed there in the waning days of my marriage while the apartment was painted and floors sanded waiting for our furniture to arrive from San Francisco. I tried calling On The Ave, a cool boutique hotel, but each time they transferred me to reservations I was put on hold for so long that eventually I hung up.
In the meantime, I was busy entertaining. The building’s insurance investigator arrived as did another city fire marshal. I watched as they sifted through the charred remains of my bedroom window and wall, smelling each piece of blackened wood and asking me where it had come from as if I could recognize its source. Some of the debris had landed in the backyard of the building next to mine but most was in the garden below. I couldn’t see any of it because what used to be my bedroom window was now boarded up with plywood. More guests arrived these two were welcome; sent by the service my insurance company used, there were here to pick up round one of my clothes to be cleaned. Everything I owned smelled of smoke, and I didn’t know where to begin.
“It’s winter,” suggested one. “It’s cold out. Let’s start with your coats.”
I handed him my two furs, a mink coat that belonged to my grandmother and a raccoon jacket that the ex-law had given me. I held back my shearling coat and down-filled ski parka; they could go in the next round. In the bedroom, I took the clothes that hung in neat rows: suits, dresses, blouses, sweaters and slacks. Each one was carefully examined for pre-existing conditions, like my favorite “at home” sweater, a heather cashmere crewneck with a small hole in the shoulder seam. I had to provide a value for each item before the men logged them on a list then put them in the large laundry-style bags they had brought with them. They also took my too-little-used luggage. I hadn’t traveled in years.
It was dark by the time I finally went out for the Sunday paper, intending to stop at On The Ave to see if they had a vacancy. Instead, I remembered The Milburn on West 76th Street, where the ex-law’s grown stepchildren had once stayed. The front desk staff was friendly and amenable to being paid directly by the insurance company and they had a room.
I went back to my apartment, filled some Fairway shopping bags with essentials, packed up my laptop, and then walked around the block to formally check in. Relief flooded me as I opened the door to the corner room and discovered a small suite on the top floor. My fear of being stuck in one room with a bed, bureau, and a television as my only companions was unfounded. Walking in through the small hall, what struck me first was how clean the air was. Until then I hadn’t realized how toxic what I had been breathing was. I was also happy that the windows opened, and I wouldn’t be hermetically sealed in. The bedroom was far more spacious than I was used to and I couldn’t tell if the bed was queen-size or full. I just hoped it was firm.
Faced with too many choices of where to put my meager belongings, I fished around in the bag until I found my toothbrush and toothpaste, brushed my teeth, and washed my face. Even though it was only 8 P.M., and I hadn’t eaten all day, I hung out the Do Not Disturb sign, closed the bedroom door, took off my clothes, and went to sleep.
Fourteen hours later, I woke up. I didn’t have a robe so I put on a T-shirt bracing myself for the chilly walk to the kitchen where I had noticed a small coffeemaker the night before. Entering the sun-filled living room, I was warm. It wasn’t just the sun, the radiator emanated heat. My apartment, while cool in the summer, is never warm enough in the winter. The living room radiator is in one corner of the room and while the bedroom is small, two of the walls are exterior, and I have often joked that I could hang meat there.
Sitting on the loveseat, drinking hotel-provided French Roast, my fifteenth-floor suite had the most-coveted of New York City views – Southern Exposure. Now I realized what a big deal it was. Years of living in a northern-facing brownstone looking at the trees in other people’s gardens had inured me to what I was missing. I could see the three side columns of the Ansonia and south to the spire and red-neon sign on the Essex House, and the dome-roof on Worldwide Plaza. To the east was the Citicorp Center with its distinctive angled roof. I could also see the Time Warner Center, and closer to home the Central Savings Bank Building, now converted to ridiculously-priced condominiums, looked small. Cars traveled north on Amsterdam Avenue and in both directions on Broadway.
Later that night, I pulled up the living room blinds and looked out at the clear dark sky. I could see stars, so many that I was sure I was looking at a constellation. The moon, too, was within my sights.
I have been here long enough to see the lunar eclipse, coinciding with the winter solstice, the last one of its kind for 500 years, watched the blizzard blanket the city, and on New Year’s Eve, I saw the fireworks launched in Central Park.
The windows are thick so there is little noise and the view, originally a distraction, is now a reminder that there is life out there on the streets, unlike the barren winter gardens my apartment windows look out on.
It may not be home, but seriously, I have heat.